< When Will the Word Tired Disappear >

..Tired Tired Tired..

He is alwayz tired.. he is always sleepy.. When can he spare sometime to know what i wan and where i would like to go… haiz.. I guess i need to see the doc soon.. my eyes are becoming panda eyes.. red and swollen.. with heavy eyebag… at the tip of my eyes… dunno why also… i need to get rid of them before my graduation to ensure that i have nice nice photo for my graduation..

i need to see doc.. i need to buy blazar.. i may need a new laptop.. so much things.. but no money.. haiz.. sianz… i need more off dae.. one off dae isn’t enough.. i realli need to find one office job… anyone got any recommendation?? part time office job???

< sth is missing >

Something is lost.. Something is missing.. with the time..

As time goes.. as time past by me.. i suddenly feel that i had lost many many things… I had no more time with my friends.. no more time with my family.. Many things are out of my reach.. they seems to be placing up high on the shelve.. yet i’m too short to reach them..

Todae is my off dae.. finally one off dae after 15 daes of work.. But todae.. i wanted to go no where.. but to stay at home.. i wanted to be alone.. i wanted to meet up with my friends.. i wanted to go out with my family… i wanted to do many things.. yet.. my brain refuse to do what i should do.. instead, insisting on things it wishes to do..

Yesterade was 28th.. Went to sentosa in the night after my work, after our dinner at fish & co. I juz feel sth is missing.. sth is lost.. there is communication breakdown… Many things.. i wanted to talk about.. yet i always shut up after a word or two.. dunno how to continue.. can’t find words to describe.. to tel him what i’m thinking..

I need many things now… friendship, kinship, and love..

< SICK PIG >

i’m a sick pig… keep getting sick.. firstly is becoz i got fever… then i got to vomit.. haiz… Then.. these few daes.. i came home early and slept early.. actually wanted to wait for adrian to be home.. yet i fell asleep while waiting… even handphone can’t wake me up…

Todae i’m home early again.. promotion hasn’t been good… haiz… my sales sux… my sales had neer been so bad before.. i’m realli disappointed with myself… anyway… my eyes seems to be getting better… that pus came out… but my lower eye lashes pores are still infected… doesn’t seems to be getting better… damn…

I realli hope to have a getr away by goin for holidae… i wanted to go hong kong… or bangkok… find somewhere i can shop… haiz… i need a break!!!!!

< Tired >

i’m super bloody tired.. after a row of 4 morning shift… which ended up staying for full shift… damn.. anyway.. went to Bar None for promotion… juz inside marriot… got free drinks… and then.. my colleagues they all are juz puffing away in their cigarattes and keep telling me to take one…. I am determined… so i din touch them… yet i juz can’t stop drinking.. i din dance.. it’s more like a pub than a disco… anyway.. i drank quite a lot….

I drank 4 bottle of asashi.. then almost 3/4 cup of johnny walker on rock… then i drank johnny walker mix with coke… ehh… i am drunk… not very but i am.. haha.. juz that i still able to make my way home… now my pillow still have the smell… so smelly… coz i din bath and went to bed..

Todae woke up with a heavy head.. went to work… move those stock… set up the counter.. wah… if the dae before work u are drunk.. i guess better dun report for work.. i fell down again… kaoz… my head already pain… after that even more pain!!!!!!

Anyway… my sales are bad really bad… diaoz… i goin to get it from my boss… haiz… please bless me with lotsa luck.. i need them…

< back in camp >

he’s back in camp..

I was quite busy for todae.. or rather.. very busy for the dae.. coz tangs is having sales and my sales is alright lahz… haiz… but i really miss him.. diaoz… dunno when i become so mushy.. anyway.. it’s true…

Got more and more stock coming in… more and more blueblackz on my body.. i was so sick and tired of them.. endless work to do… No more off daes for the rest of the month.. wat the sh**… goin to have promotion soon… i will be busy.. but i need the money.. hehe..

Wonder if my friends will read this.. i miss porkies.. i miss my brother huiling… i miss my group of friends… can we meet up some dae… juz find a place to sit down and talk… no shopping and walking… hehe…

- I’m Alone.. I’m Lovesick -

< a nite with him >

had some time with him before he actually booked in.. so used to have him toking to me.. waiting for me after work.. bringing me for supper… now he actually have to stay in.. coz his course is over… Oh shit.. why do i feel so sad… as if he will be gone for ages.. hmm… juz sad…

Last nite.. spend wonderful time with him, Kelvin, michael, and larry… funnie bunch of friends adrian got… ahhaa… so cute and funnie… brighten up my dae man.. haha.. anyway we went to watch the horror movie.. dunno about a house one.. scare my wits out of me… i almost climbed onto Adrian… i’m serious… haha… but it’s a good movie… AND a horror movie in the late midnight… All thanks to larry…

We got to Mr Bean… sat down, tok and chatted.. then later Adrian sent them home.. fell asleep at his house.. woke up in the late morning.. then had a dinner with his family before he setting off for camp.. his parents are goin for holidaes again.. and in the midst of the dinner.. his dad asked me if i want to join them for hong kong trip during july… i dunno how to ans.. I’m happy that they actually ask me along coz.. i really din expect that.. but isn’t it weird for me to join ppl’s family tour… i will be a spoiler by then… hmm.. see how things goes.. but i guess he is keen in goin… so we shall forget abt our holidae to malaysia or somewhere.. haiz.. i thought i will be able to celebrate my early birthdae overseas… FAT HOPE…

Looking forward to next weekend… i noe he will be tired… so am i… are we able to cope with this kind of life???

< supper>

juz reached home from the supper with jiayi and hanwei… actually i was too tired to go out.. yet in the end.. i guess i should meet up with my friends le.. coz i will be having promotions soon.. trying to find time avaliable to meet many many people… huiling, qiujin, weiling, joyce, sandra, judy, weixiang, yuling, dorothy… etc etc.. too many ppl to be named… but i guess i realli wun have time for all of them… diaoz..

My sales is good todae.. but is tiring… i had been packing and unpacking stock for ar least 3 hours in the afternoon as new stocks are coming.. the display need to be changed.. stock need to be kept.. FOC need to be returned… counter need to be cleaned.. storeroom need to be packed.. paperwork need to be done… so many so many things to do.. so.. i’m getting short tempered these few daes..

Adrian had went out with his friens.. so i went out with mine too.. in the end.. he reached home earlier than me.. hehe.. anyway.. at the rocher beancurd there.. i saw my cousins… hehe.. and my niece.. and my sweet pies.. the twins and my niece plus my nephew!!! hehe… somehow expected that they will be there… anyway… tok abt many things with hanwei and jiayi…

I can sense… jiayi is unhappy… not her real self… cheer up ger… work is like that.. it had alwayz been shitty… look on the brighter side… hehe… take care ppl.. and do drop me a msg to show that u have been here… hehe.. =)

I’m so angry.. with everything… i dunno why.. i kept losing my temper todae.. I was so tired that i woke up onli at abt 12.. reach there at abt 130… put on the uniform and it realli sux.. tot i will be hugging a dinosaur egg home todae.. PRADA… stupid perfume…

Went to eat maggie mee for my lunch and ate a chicken wing.. hmm… not bad lahz… then after dat lunch.. i onli left with 2 bucks in my wallet… the 30 bucks i got in the bank need to pay for my handphone billl… so.. i still need money to top up my farecard.. i still money to eat… this and that.. i dun dare to ask my mum for anymore money… coz she already spent quite a sum on my eye.. haiz.. i need money… where the fuck i can get them… damn…

this weekend i goin to have my off daes… he is not certain if he is free.. not sure if he is able to accompany me.. dun even noe if i will be able to meet him.. i alwayz tot i can look forward to this weekend off dae.. but it dun seems to be a good time.. I sick of everything.. about sales.. about me.. about my everything…

Can i juz bid goodbye to my bad luck? Let me have better sales before i got sacked.

< Mother’s Day >

Todae is Mother’s dae.. but sales is realli bad.. hmm… anyway.. got some flowers for my mum.. actualli wanted to get some for adrian’s mum.. but home delivery requires purchases of at least 88 bucks.. hmm.. anyway i also dun have so much money.. so forget it.. juz simply msg his mum happy mother’s day on the handphone.

As for my auntie.. i din get the chance to go over to wish her happy mother’s dae.. Hmm.. My second mother.. hehe.. realli too busy with work.. Perhaps i shall go over tomolo morning..

went out with Adrian and his friends last nite.. Went Wisma to have a drink.. the pizza look nice but we din eat it.. perhaps will eat it some other dae… after which we went to have roti prata.. then the blur adrian.. din even recognise his poly classmate…. He was just sitting beside him.. =_=”"

Then we went over to cine for a movie.. so long since i watch a mid night show with adrian without him sleeping in the cinema.. hehe.. Are we there yet? – the title of the movie.. nice and funnie.. haha… luff till my head goin to drop… after the show.. sae the siao ger.. look so sick.. haha.. Stupid huiling.. then i look at the person beside her.. diaoz.. Her 20.. hmm.. din get a close look at him.. it’s too dark anyway.. and she actualli msg me sth.. telling me that i look happy then..

Reach home at ard 4… hmm.. was quite tired.. but i insisted on washing my hair.. if not i wun be able to fall asleep.. then .. i waited and waited for my hair to dry.. wait till ard 5 plus bah.. then fall asleep and wake up at 8.. wah.. it was raining so heavily.. wat a nice dae to sleep in.. too bad got to work… sianz…

Anyway.. was really hungry when i got home todae.. Ate a bowl of maggie mee with veg and egg.. 3 chicken wings.. half pack of jack and jill potato chips.. hehe.. woah.. thats alot.. hehe..

< @ Work >

was alright at work.. just time my hands are dry.. haha.. dry till my skin crack abit when i move the cartons todae.. was realli bad at work.. sales are bad.. sianz sianz.. He came to fetch me home todae.. he grew fatter. hehe.. i still remember the time when he juz entered poly.. hehe.. fit and he look so nice in tight fit shirt.. hehee.. missed the six pec he has..

Hmm.. i still remember those times in guides.. hehe.. somehow those memories are still fresh in my head.. hmm… love those time.. hehe… missed the sunburn Adrian with red red nose and cheeks.. hehe..

Anyway… i guess i really got attitude prob. serious attitude prob.. coz i alwayz get sad when he went out with his friends over the weekend.. hmm.. sometimes i hope he can juz bring me along when he watches movie with his friens.. but i guess i will be a parasite by then.. *SmilEz*