Went Ikea today and it was freaking crowded as it’s having sales now. Actually, i dun see many things on sales, the prices of the products are still the same. Had the yummy swedish meatballs, sth that she loved to eat.
I seriously need some sleep, my brain is protesting and on the verge of hibernation. Ooohz, i meeting the dentist on friday for a braces checkup thingy… hahaa.. i”m goin to have my braces on!!! SMILE….
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brenda should be on her way back to Singapore.. Hope that she will have a safe and comfy journey =)
Couldn’t get to sleep, thinking abt many things. Some of them made me smiled, some of them made my heart ached.
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hmm.. now when i read my yesterday post, i realized i mentioned i goin for the talk today hahaa.. but actually i already went for the talk the day before.. the tomolo actually means yesterday… I was really too tired yesterday..
HAHAA…. sweet huiling is goin to organize a gathering on saturday!!!! Really hope those ladies can make it.. hahaa.. shopping and high tea time!!! we really sound like tai tai.. well, i guess all girls want to be tai tai.. hahaa…
LALALLALALALA…… enjoying myself!!
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lalalallalaaa…. went for a comms service talk tomolo, trying to clear the damn 80 hours of comms service. hehe.. Well, things went on quite well except that my dear bren was not in singapore to attend this talk. Actually, many ppl din attend the talk last evening, but still saw some familiar faces.. Well.. there are many many diff booths and games, in the end, louis and I are required to prepare and decorate one of it.. hmm.. bren and wah wah will most prob be doin ushering.. i wan ushering, coz i dun need to decorate the booths or preapre any quipements or stuff like that.. I’m plain lazy..
Hmm.. got to go back to school on the 5th till late evening and got to go to that primary on 7th and 8th of august.. Hmm.. got peg’s party to attend to, so my sweet dear said that he will help me to wrap up everything and i will be able to go off early!! then i can make my way home to take a bath and prepare myself for the occasion hehe.. Long time since i meet up with amkians.. haha.. still remember those wonderful memories that we shared, how we luff, smile, quarrel and curse.. hahaa… we really grew up together.. haha..
lalalalalaaaa….. i’m glad that louis is ending his work soooon, real soon.. and got many gatherings lined up!!! haha.. lalallaaa…
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SHitttt…. the bloody thing cannot be removed!!! the specialist said that it is too deep inside and will cause lots and lots of bleeding. That’s not the worse, she said that my damn eyes are so oily and the oil gland in the eye lid are over active!!! so i will need to clean my eyes constantly with some solution and the solution cost damn ex.. wah kaoz.. this is to be on LONG TERM basis.. The another piece of bad news came, she checked my eyes and said that my optic nerves are abnormally huge and it could be a type of disease… arGh.,.. my damn eyes.. i[‘ve spent so much on them le.. already more than 1000 bucks.. i dun understand what’s wrong with those stupid eyes…
Need to go for a followup session But.. the school onli reimbursed up to 100 bucks per year… fantastic, the fees today already almost there… arGh… damn it lahz… i still need to apply antibiotics cream on my eyes for 2 months… then i need to go for another follow up.. But before the 2 months, i need to go for a test to see if my optic nerves are normal… arGh…. damn it..
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i said i wasn’t, but i am…
I said it’s okie, but i noe it isn’t..
i told him I’m strong, I noe i’m lying..
I told everyone i can take of it, but i noe things will be chaotic..
I told myself that i will be able to be independent and take care of myself, but i noe it wasn’t true…
I noe myself well, no matter how much i tried, i will end up hating things for turning out to be that way..
I juz hope that things will go well, a wan a double eyelid, and i hope i will be able to get it after tomlo’s operation… I hope the doctor and kind enough to give me a double eyelid when removing the stubborn thingy on my inner eyelid…
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had a long long sleep… 13 hours of sleep… dreamt of many many things and part of it is abt her. We were queueing up for food in a particular canteen like how we used to be, then i was asking her what she wanted to eat, i forgot she answered me chicken chop or chicken cutlet. The dreamt seems so unreal as the owners of the stall was jiayi’s parents and jiayi was there to help. Weird dream.. anyway, she was luffing and giggling as usual, dun really remember what we chatted, but before the dream ended, she gave me a consoling pat on my back and said, it’s okie. hmm… i really dun remember a single thing of what we talked..
Anyway.. it’s a dream, maybe it’s real, maybe it’s not. No one noes, no one can justify that..
Went out with huiling yesterday, another budget trip. we spent very little money on food, and we din really buy things… good good.. things should keep it this way.. haha.. so that i can save more money. Hope her sinus is getting better and those lousy guys juz leave her alone..
Congrats ger… u have been doin a great job in staying on to this job, jiayou man.. hahaa…
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lame, ppl called it… that’s what i was told, to visit only on their death anniversaries and festivals. It’s my religion anyway.. Now things are ugly, the nasty comments abt whose fault.. whatever it is, it may be my fault for not spending time and making effort plus i’m not trying to find excuses for myself for not visiting her…
Whatever i said have become bullshit.. sometimes ppl have to be more empathetic and undersand ppl’s situation before making comments. Being responsible is a moral value that was instilled to me since young.
Whatever it is.. Things have already came to this stage.
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thoughts kept running thru my mind as though they are in marathon. Quarrels, conflicts, ugly scenes.. None of these things actually happened in the 3 years of poly we went thru together.. We had disagreements during project meetings, but we all noe when to take a step back. But this time i think i really took everything for granted. In one of the modules i studied, it taught us that there’s always a cycle in twam building. Forming, Norming, Storming, Resolving. Once, i told my friends that my poly clique had never gone thru the storming stage, whereby we will quarrel, trying to sort our differences and trying to come back together to accept each other. My professor said that only teams which went thrru this cycle will be able to cope and adapt with future changes. It seems what he said is true. Theories had come alive.
We were once so close, went thru the tough time together, celebrated everyone’s birthday with big big smiles and hugs. We used to be very open to each other, we talked abt everything under the sun. Once i said to someone, 5 of us, 2 pairs of best friends, and i noe they have tried not to leave me out. No matter what, i’m too sensitive to feel absolutely alright abt it. Perhaps as what she mentioned, the problems have alwayz been there, juz that we chose to leave it unresolved and untouched. I dunno if others think the same way as me, but i’m glad that things are clear too me and i came to realised that what i did had indeed hurt many of u. Perhaps the main cause of all these are by me, when things are clear, things can be resolved. To me, friends are suppose to be open to each other, point out things in life and hope to sort out the differences and problems.. that least that’s my thinking… ALthough I dunno how long that will take, and i dunno if this day will ever come by, i hope things wll be better, things will be alright.
I noe all these will be hard, coz we indeed have different school of thoughts. Communication seems to be a problem now. No matter what, memories will alwayz stay, coz i want them too. But life still goes on, the sun still rise and set. Perhaps i’m far too practical abt my life but I’m really not trying to say that all these are trifle matters which i dun even care. But that, things have come to a stage whereby what i said have inevitably became excuses. Action speaks louder than words, ppl had always repeating this phrase over and over again, trying to tell ppl to stop talking, and start to do something. But things are already a fact, it doesn’t mean that i dun care when i dun follow what u all do. I would rather to help her complete her dreams than to keep reminding her that she has left us and she’s constantly on our mind. I noe she knows it, all these assurance dun help, at least not in this instance. All these are my views and i dun mean that ppl have to agree with me too. Juz that all i wan is to get a good degree to repay my parent’s hardwork, to secure me a good future as well as to tell her that i’ve did it.
agree or disagree, they all dun matter to me anymore, coz i noe where i’m heading towards and trying to make my way to achieve the goals. Selfish and self-centered it may seems, but it doesn’t seems to me that way, coz that’s theh best thing i could ever do to repay my parents for trying to scrimp and save every cent for me to further my studies.. It’s not easy for them and i wun juz scrap thru things which i’ve already promised them, her and myself..
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Nothing more i wan to say.. dun understand means dun understand.. i dun understand nor can u all.. juz let things be..
No matter what i juz hope to say, i heard from those elders and my shifu that once someone is gone, we can’t keep goin to visit them, is bad for the deceased. I duno how true is it, but that’s what he told us when my uncle passed away.. I’m not trying to find an excuse for myself.. i juz trying to let this thing known..
enough said, whatever it is, let it be.
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