okie.. since Miss brenda had expose me, i admit th…

okie.. since Miss brenda had expose me, i admit that i really wear shorts and tees to school almost every day, But it’s already a blessing when i dun wear pajamas to sch!! Oh ya.. i’m proud that i’m putting in effort to style my hair, at least to “glue” them with some wax. At least this is an IMPROVEMENT from the daily hairband routine. I was just so lazy that i would push my fringe back with my hairband, and there i go, ready for school. Okie.. i feel somewhat guilty now. bleahh

I just couldn’t stand wearing jeans for the whole day, esp when we are staying in school for more than 10 hours, and very often of not, more than 12 hours. My skin needs to breatheeeee… Well well.. but no skirt… for my 2 years in school, i think i wore skirt for less than 5 times (except for those formal wear lahz). I’m like a monkey who just can’t sit still. I would fold my legs, rest my legs on the chairs. Therefore, i’m sure i look awful if i do that when i’m in a skirt. Enough of my excuse. i guess i will try to put in more effort to dress up a little. =_=”"

okie.. I shall buy more decent shorts or maybe berms? haha.. maybe that would look a little more formal.

maybe i can try wearing a skirt tomolo.. haha sounds good..

Time to take a deeeeep breath… rest for a night …

Time to take a deeeeep breath… rest for a night before goin on to the two reports.

My cough is getting from bad to worse and I’m like an ah ma who will cough every 30 seconds. Once in a while, i would cough my heart out as though i’m goin to get an asthma attack.

Hmm.. i realised sth. There are 3 type of friends in smu. One group is those friend who could only recognise me when i’m in my casual wear. i.e tees and jeans. Another type would be those who could only recognise me when I’m in formal wear. That’s without specs, with make up on. The last type would be those that are closer to me and are able to recognize no matter what i become. Hahaha..

It’s really weird when u say Hi to a person and took her so long to come to realise who am i. I’m juz like an idiot who just smiled at any passer-by. =_=”"

Does it look a hell difference when i do make up and when i do not. Okie.. alot of people do say it made a huge difference. Well.. I’m just who i am. I just don’t like to make up and feel uneasy for the whole day. Okie.. I’m plain lazy, but only when it comes to putting on make up and choosing my clothes. I’m not a ger.. I noe.. perhaps should just dress nicer so that the profs would take note of me, perhaps there would be a better grade for participation.

I realised i’ve changes many hairstyles over the past months.. haha.. let’s have a review!!

hmm.. some of them indeed dun look like me lahz,…

Okie.. the stupid cold and my virus infection are …

Okie.. the stupid cold and my virus infection are not getting any better. In fact, they got worse. This means that i need make another trip down to the clinic. I wonder what’s wrong manz.. this has been goin on for more than a week.

Well.. i think i better get back to my books. I’m studying far too slowly to be in time for the test.

After ample of sleep and rest over the weekend, my…

After ample of sleep and rest over the weekend, my cough and cold dun seem to recover. Shit. Aiyo.. can my health stop giving me problems.

Maybe my health will slowly improve when I’m feeling happier. In this case, i shall stay happy.

Crap… i think i better hurry back to my books… another 6 more chapters to go. This is crazy…

Our Hardwork.. Our baby… Thanks to everyone.. W…

Our Hardwork.. Our baby…

Thanks to everyone.. We all made this possible..

Let’s work hard for our report.. I love u all.. =)

Instead of hugging my pillow, i’m now hugging the …

Instead of hugging my pillow, i’m now hugging the tissue box. Drawing tissue after tissue, to sniff and then throw into the already-opened rubbish bin. This is torturing. The mucus is thick, the phlegm is blocking my esophagus. I’m finding hard to breathe, as though my asthma is coming back anytime.

Just when i thought that nothing could be worse than what I am now, My nose has this tickling sensation and fresh red blood came dripping down on my shirt… Oh god… what did i do to offend u… Why muz u do this to me…. Urghh…

i tried to get rid of the mucus by blowing hard, so hard that i could feel my head feels so groggy after each forceful blow. I tried to get rid of those sticky phlegm by coughing and sucking hard to get them out. But i think all these doesn’t work. I give up. I guess i better get back to my bed…

Got back the grades for the comms project. We did …

Got back the grades for the comms project. We did well, or rather the other 3 group members did well. It’s me again. Perhaps it’s me who pulled the grade down.

人常说“一山还有一山高.” 在这里， 每一座山都比我高， 我被压在底下， 快喘不过气来了。

I dreamt that i’m well… sitting with them having dinner together. it seems like i alwayz dream of having dinner with them, as though everything is alrite again. But i noe, that would be hard, at least in the real life. In school, time is alwayz the thing that we hope to have more, but yet, we can’t have them. We are alwayz racing against time, trying to complete one challenge after another. But the difference is, I’m always behind others. No matter in studies or even things such as presentation skills.

Had a small talk with some of my friends in smu, they said, there’s no so called day or night in smu, there’s no longer a difference between the day and the night. In the day, we are in school. In the night, we are still in school. It’s not about the time management skills that many ppl talked about. It’s just the number of projects and stuff we’ve got on hand. Quite true.

I guess things just got worse as the school’s marketing effort paid off. It just makes the school more competitive, more inhumane and more “fake” people around.

Man is a selfish creature. We all have to admit that.

Tiredness numbs my anxiety, the queasiness about s…

Tiredness numbs my anxiety, the queasiness about speaking in front of the 10 guests and my profs. Perhaps, tiredness is a good thing after all. It somehow cushion me from the wild thoughts about what would happen. When I stood in front of the laptop with the screen at the back, all I could do is to speak what’s on my mind. Heck the script, heck the nice metaphors and quotes I’ve prepared.

Day after day, meetings after meetings and projects after projects. My sleep debt just can’t stop accumulating and the clock just refuse to pause for a few minutes to catch my breath. My fever is getting from bad to worse, I could feel that my organs are burning and my body is freezing. I guess I need to consult the doctor again as I ran out of the fever medicine. I need to take my medicine regularly to keep my temperature down and to continue with the project. Another 2 reports to go. I know all these will be ending soon. Very sooooon.

I’m going to miss that class for one day as i’m do…

I’m going to miss that class for one day as i’m down with a fever due to virus attack. Weird.. The doctor said that antibiotics wouldn’t help and just told me to get more rest and water. My throat used to be badly infected due to viral infection and now it’s like a on and off thing.

I’m kinda blur now.. really need to get some rest on my bed as my whole body is aching and shivering with cold. Before i get to bed, i kind of remember what i dreamt of 2 days ago, just that i’m too busy to type it out here.

I dreamt of her.. she’s no longer the weiling with the long hair. She had her hair cut short to slightly above shoulders with the chic look. She knows how to make up now and did a really good job in matching her necklace and her top. Could see that she’s definitely a hot chic. *Smile* I couldn’t get to see what she wears for the bottom as the 5 of us were sitting down and having lunch together. we were talking about sandra’s baby, the usual gossips and teasings.

Just feel happy to see her in the dreams.. =)

The hell has started and i got home not long ago a…

The hell has started and i got home not long ago after lonnng projects meeting in school. But, we are still not the last to leave the school. How pathetic school life is..

I’m seriously having drastic mood change and intense craving for certain food. I guess i caught a cold and it’s not a good time to catch a flu as there are so many things coming my way. I’m keeping my fingers crossed. No flu please… i dun wan to sound like a donald duck during presentation and screw my whole presentation up…

Time for me to get my ass back to the report. i need to get my sleeeeeep…