another extraction.

i think i goin Bo gay soon.. I removed a total of 6 tooth and i goin to remove another 2 tomolo. My god. I guess i’m left with nothing to bite with lahz.. I’m really scared of the injection and bloood. this is really bad =( I guess i’ll need to go on porridge for the next few days.

After the tooth extraction tml, i got to return on friday to put on my braces. This is tough.
I think the most scary one would be the operation after my exam. i guess i’ll be having holes everywhere. Can I not go through anymore of these? I’m really so scared and tired of these. I need a break..

幸福的距离

幸福是离我越来越远。。。

house of dead

My lesson juz ended and to my horror, the sch is filled with people and not a single study room is available. Everyone looked so shag and unhappy, walking around with no expression on their faces. This is scary. I’m just like standing inside the house of dead.

well welll wellll… I guess i should just stop procrastinate things, get down to my work. Fill my day with lots and lots of work, leaving me with little time to think about those unhappy stuff.
I guess I’m quite okay with the lump, it’s just that I’m so tired of traveling between school and hospitalS. And yes, I mean Hospitals. I ‘ve got so many different kind of weird illness that i need to see different specialists to fix them.I’M SO BLOODY TIRED WITH ALL THESE. Can they just give me a break? These have been going on and on for years.

I’m tired…

Game of Life

I had this very bad feeling before my breast consultation in National Cancer Centre. Somehow, we should always trust women’s instinct. I was right, there’s indeed something wrong with the bloody lump. The doctor recommend me to go through a biopsy as soon as I can to determine if it is cancerous. “It doesn’t look friendly” the specialist said. I could feel it coming. Somehow, I was mentally prepared for that piece of bad news.

I just don’t know how to break the news to my mother. If My medisave had enough money for the operation, i guess i wun even want to tell them about it. I juz wonder if my school insurance would cover the surgery cost. I’m always the unlucky one.

Poke a Hole..

Somehow, right at the end of our presentation, my prof can just stick his finger in, wiggle a little and make a big big hole. Well.. At least we showed that we did all the research we can, trying to cover as much as we can for this project.

We did our best. We’re proud to say that. =D

Somehow i just feel that i should just stop working. I realized that without my work commitments, I’ll have plenty of time to rest and stuff. But well, I will be broke of course. I guess i shall remain to be a good girl. Earn some pocket money and stop being so lazy!

All of a sudden, I feel like goin Sentosa for a tan. But it’s 8.48pm. I really think there’s sth wrong with me. =|

phewww…

Finally got some time to blog a little.

I think i seriously need to prioritize my tasks, which mean i might wan to quit my job as i really got no time to commit in it. By dragging my work beyond the datelines are really irresponsible. I shall see how things go and might quit even if needed. That means i need to find some ways to get money.

Well well well… i think we did a great job for the IE project! I love my group mates. =D

I can’t breathe anymore..

I guess it’s the hell week for many of my friends. Projects, meetings, presentations, tests and many many other more commitments. It’s a week which all shits happen at the same time.

I dunno why but I’m so sick of studying that i can simply feel no motivation to study for my test tml. I’ve been coping up at home for weeeeeeks. I hasn’t seen a movie, i hasn’t step into Orchard. I can’t even feel that I’m still breathing. I’m juz like a robot programmed to travel between sch, office and home. I’m so sick of it.

I need to get some fresh air, to feel that I’m still alive.

I think it’s hormones that causing all these emotions to surge within me. But no matter what, I’m so damn sick of this kind of life.

Getting more and more irritated

everything is getting on my nerves..

Arghh… School and work should never come together. Now should i save my ass from getting burn by the SMU fire or should i rush out the report for my boss. I hate it when everything just comes together. There are things Which i simply can’t do if the other ppl can’t co-operate with me. Do I have to fly over to their countries to demand what I need from them?! Shit.. I’m getting so pissed and have the urge to say “I quit”.

I’m not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. I need to earn for what I goin to spend, eat or whatsoever. I can’t quit, nor could I ignore what my boss demand. Teach me what to do when 24 hours are no longer enough for the work load. I tried to sleep lesser, I din even try to step into Orchard Road during my term break. I can’t breathe anymore.. I juz need a break. Just a day. I am a human being too…

**I guess I’m on the verge of breaking down. F***

Half-way there..

Alrite.. Finally my term “break” is over, school is starting tomolo. During this break, School work is more busy than ever. Had been attending project meetings and running between suntec and SMU. Crappp… I know things are going to be okie SOOoOOOOON..

I went for my braces appt and who noes, a power ortho says, i need to forgo 2 upper 5s. This means that i need to go for tooth extraction again. In this way, my surgery will only be on my lower jaw. Some kind of good news, but it seems like i’m starting all over again!!! I need to close the bloody gap and it will take like 9 months? my god.. i will need to push back my surgery again. =(

yesterday, louis and I wanted to catch residential evils. I got the tickets when I was on my way back from project meeting. But, poor louis was so sick and in the end, we ended up in the A&E. His fever was soooo high and made us so worried. So, in the end , his dad sent him to A&E outpatient clinic. he was sick for a week, therefore, the doc did a blood test for him. Luckily, the result is negative for dengue fever. Poor louis has been sick for 1 week. Just hope that he get well soon.

The coming week is going to be hell.But i know everything will turn out fine..

** To my dear Huiling: So sorry that we hasn’t been able to meet up. Will meet up real soon when all these craps are over. *hugzz*

I juz need a break…

I guess after a week of endless project meetings and work, i deserve a decent break. So, i spend one hour shopping. I unwind thru the sinful way- spending my hard-earn money. Well, i juz got myself two bras to make myself happier, to remind myself that I do love myself.

I guess those tiredness are setting in. I’ve been sleeping for less than 5 hours each day for the past few days and I could feel my body is going to give way. I’m starting to feel feverish and lethargic. It’s not a good time to fall sick. I guess, I better cut this entry short and get back to my projects.

I’ve been goin for movies every saturday night. But even though this week is a break, I didn’t catch a single movie and won’t be catching one tomolo either. Well.. I’m slogging my ass out in the the school and work. I hate the kind of life, but I do love to attend project meetings because i get to see those sweet darlings. We got insane together, we luffed, we helped each other out. Although projects life are shitty, i love them. =)

I guess i really having fever… i better pop some panadols before i fall sick. Crappp…