Everything looks uninteresting.

When i was busy studying and preparing for exams, everything online looks interesting. Online shopping, facebook-ing, reading blogs. Every single thing is the most enjoyable thing I could do. I guess anything is interesting as compared to studying. Well, now that the exams are over, those that I once regarded as interesting and fun, are no longer fun. I’m surfing aimlessly from one website to another, yawning as I goes. What is happening. I think It’s because today is FRIDAY and I’ve got no choice but to stay at home to nurse the bloody wound.

Wanna know how painful it is? It feels like the breast is being bashed and slapped by many, causing it to bruised. Everytime I lift something heavy with my left arm, it will juz give way. I guess I could feel that hole right in the middle of my breast. It sounds disgusting and it looks disgusting in my imagination too. grrrrrr… Find me things to do! I shall start work on Monday!!!!! I need something to do….

One down, another to go.

Finally down with the exam. I screwed it up, but well, I’m just glad that things are over. I’m juz too tired and lack of motivation to sit for papers. After the exam, i headed straight to the SGH for the operation. I just want to get everything done as soon as possible. Oh well, now that the operation is done, i need to wait for the result to know if the bloody lump is cancerous. Just keeping my fingers crossed. Hope that everything is alright.

One after another, I’m tired. I’m sick of hospital and operations, can i just get a decent life?

I do understand.

Was talking to my cousin over msn. Out of the 5 that has passed away in Cambodia, i think 2 of them are his friends. I didn’t ask much as I din want to make him even more upset. Somehow, I could feel his sadness even over the msn. Thru his one or two words replies, I understand it’s not the best time to talk to him. Just hope that he can pull through this terrible period, and do well for his exams as well.

The pain of losing a close friend, knowing that the one who used to joke and laugh with you could is no longer around, truly hurts. Sometimes, I would just tear. Sometimes, i would key her handphone number, feeling the urge to press the call button. Somehow, some part of me still in denial that she is gone.

I feel for my cousin and the relatives and friends of the deceased. Just hope they could pull though the tough times.

我们这一班

I’m currently listening to the song, “我们这一班” and looking back at those wonderful days in AMKSS. Secondary 1 and 2 is my most enjoyable days in AMKSS. I remembered how naughty and mischievous my class (1/4 and 2/4) was. We make fun of teachers, we did so many stuns that pissed many teachers off. However, we were not only a class, but also a team. We stood up for ourselves, we came up with crazy ideas in the last mins, putting up a fabulous performance.

During our Secondary one Teacher’s day performance, we staged a skit together with the class singing “我们这一班”. I still remember peggy provided the song in a cassette tape. oooh.. that reflects how old i am. Well wellll… somehow that performance touched the hearts of many teachers. The song truly reflects our love for the teachers and how thankful we are towards our teachers. One of the beautiful moments in AMKSS.

I missed the class. Shall have a class gathering soooonn!! Love you all guys…

Shitty Semester

This semester is as bad as my first semester in year 2. Bad bad.. It’s going to be real bad.

I’m trying to mitigate the damage and yet.. I don’t think much can be done.

I’m really looking forward to December 2008. It will be my happiest christmas in 2008 and 2009 will be the happiest new year.

I need to get my eyes back to the International Econs. I really think it’s bad this time.

* I should think positively. I should think positively. I should be positive.*

Crap.. I’m just like a deflated balloon..

Time for me to keep the leads hot…

After much thinking, i guess solidworks is a good company to work in too, after ignoring the demographics and all. I guess I could learn many useful stuff when working directly under the marketing director. Time for me to keep the leads HOT. I will try to do my best in my work, hopefully they will renew my contract or sth and I get to work till I grad. Perhaps, I will be able to get a job in there.

But, whether i could get the job is not up for me to decide. So, I better work hard and perform well. If not, I might not even get to extend my expiring contract.

I want to get out of SMU asap.

it never fail to happen

This happens every time.

When i finally get some part time job to earn some pocket money for myself, thinking that i could save some money for the rainy days. Even before i could start the saving, the rain starts pouring. I spent every single cent of my hard earned money on medical expenses. Surgery, Bone scan, eye medical checkup, x rays. You name it, I have it.

I really wanted to save. At least some money sufficient for a short getaway. Things are not right. My life seems to be cursed. A curse that can’t be lifted.

Disappointment

I refuse to believe. I kept telling myself it’s because of the heavy workload.

But somehow, you proved to me that all those excuses I’ve found, are just excuses.

disappointment.

concussed.

After many nights of insufficient sleep, I fell dead on my bed last nite. I couldn’t wake up this morning as I couldn’t hear my alarm clock ring. I woke up at about 10am by calls regarding my work. Then, i wanted to wake up and go to work. But, I found myself sleeping even while sitting up. I decided to forgo my pay for the day and sleep in. I seriously need some sleep so that my flu can recover. And now, i shall work on the General Electric report. I never never want to hear about General Electric again.

I dun understand how could there be a General Electric experience when they are dealing with appliances and light bulbs. The experience part may come in GE money financial services but definitely not in appliances. Does the fridge smells of GE? crapp.. Somehow, we got to crap it out.

My block nose is gone, but i still sound like a trans. Shity.

miss u.