Staring into the dark, trying to think what have I achieved for the past almost 23 years. Those beautiful memories flashed through my mind as though I am sitting in for a movie.
Time flies. I remember those teenage years when I can’t wait to turn 21, just because I want to be out of my parent’s control. But now that I am almost 23, things still remain the same. I am still a baby girl to them.
I guess the 20th year of my life is the most painful, almost heart wrecking. I remember the call from Wanqi, the saddening scene in the hospital, the sweet angel on the hospital bed and how hard we all prayed for her heart to continue beating. I remembered how I fumbled in my class when I knew she can’t make it, I remembered I sat in my class the next day after she passed away, staring blankly at the prof. I hope she is with God, living happily just like how she was like in the past.
It has been 2.5 years since Louis and I started. Times flies so fast without us realizing. I always feel that it seems we have knew each other long long time ago and will be together for a long long time.
It has been 11 years since I got to know my besties. No matter what happens, I am sure they will stand by me, to support and motivate me. We grew up together, we Emo together, We laughed, we cried, we argue and we quarrel. But in the end, we always never fail to end up hugging each other.
It is going to be the last semester for me in SMU. I remember how much I hated the school and how much I dread going to school. I know my decision to go Uni is a right one, but SMU makes everything look so wrong. But well, I find my love and support in there too. Those darlings whom we spent the night together working out sth for the next day presentation or project submission. Those darlings that make me roll on the floor luffing. It is really sad that it is my last semester, and we didn’t really have the chance to do our last project. But we all know we had wonderful time together, and these memories are here to stay.
Soon, i will open another chapter of my life. I have been working since 16, but soon it will be my first time to step into the society as a permanent staff, joining the world of the office ladies.
My life has not been smooth, seen many different specialists from different departments, had a full scan from head to toe, had several operations and thank God they are minor operations. Although there have been so much ups and downs in my life, I am blessed to have many loved ones to support and love me.
You know who you are, and I sincerely thank you all for the love, laughter, tears, and joy.
– End of Shan’s Emo Night –
